"I NEED YOU SO BAD"

I need you so bad

where are you?

I need you.

You're never here when I need you the most.

I can't stand it.

I need you.

You're so far away.

I need to hold you.

You're the only one who makes this life bearable.

Even with you in my life

I'm next to suicide.

If only you were really with me,

maybe then I'd be further away.

I need you so bad...

But I know you can't come,

and I know I am dumb

for thinking and writeing this.

I need some money

and I know this seems funny

because it sounds like I'm talking about someone half way around the world.

but really they're only half way through the country.

and if they read this,

I know I'll be so fucking embarressed

'cause they'll know this is about them,

and they'll know i can't rhyme(lol.)

but I still need you so bad...

If I don't get out soon,

I don't know what'll happen

I just can't make it on my own

If only you were here

I guess I could just wish..

but that's never done anything for me

how the fuck do you expect it to work for you?

I know it's mean...

but there is no god

if there was there wouldn't be sadness, cruelness, or anger

everyone would be happy, and perfect

but is it that way?

no.

no one is perfect, nor completley happy.

but maybe if i was with you, I'd be the closest to happiest I'll ever be.

But how can I get there?

you're over 500 miles away

and I have less the 5 cents.

I know you say you could send money

but I need to get out now

I can't stand this place.

but you never pay any attention to my complaints

is it because I've complained to much?

I'm sorry, but maybe the ones you missed were the ones complaining that you don't care

I know you do

but it's so hard to see...

do you even think about me at night?

no. because that's just like in a movie, the one with the happy ending

but life isn't like a movie...

even though we all wish it could.

please just tell me that you care

I need you...

I need to hear your voice...

It seems like so long ago since I've talked to you..

because you never stick around to talk...

the last time was actually 2 weeks ago...

and then I was still like this..

Don't you see a problem?

I know you think it's just a phase.

BUT IT'S NOT...

everyone thinks that of me..

but it's not.

I need you so bad...